When it rains, it
Pours
Monday, 17 November 2014
Well, the snow is falling, as is the temperature here in
North East Ohio, but not my faith, nor my spirits! Though Verizon insists on
billing me by the minute when I have an unlimited plan, and has cut off my
phone only 4 days after the bill was paid for November, I did get a positive response
from Social Security for SSI. I have an appointment Thursday the 20th
at 0900 at the downtown Cleveland office!
And, I have not one, but TWO OFFERS FOR HOUSING!
My friend Sheryl, who has had to take on 3 jobs and sell plasma to pay her bills, has asked if I would like to share her 3 bedroom house in Canton!
And my friend Debbie, from the local church dinners, has arranged with her pastor for another housing option!
My friend Sheryl, who has had to take on 3 jobs and sell plasma to pay her bills, has asked if I would like to share her 3 bedroom house in Canton!
And my friend Debbie, from the local church dinners, has arranged with her pastor for another housing option!
I have several decisions to make, and much research to do in
the meantime until I find out what SS will do for me! I am supposed to bring
bank account info (I haven’t had an account for a year or so), payroll info from June of 2012
(I have no records at all, just my driver’s license[suspended], CCW License ID card,
SS Card, and Library Cards from 3 libraries! I no longer have my diplomas, my
certificates, my awards, my medals and ribbons, any of my uniforms, or other
personal items acquired over a lifetime.
So we will see what they say when I have nothing to present! (I have emailed our corporate HR manager in Chicago for payroll records, and we will see how long it takes the Cook County Vital Records office to send a copy of my Birth Certificate!)
I will hate to leave Cuyahoga County, but seeing as the idiots here keep voting Democrats in, including the folks under federal investigation for fraud and corruption, when the rest of the Country just gave the Dems their pink slips, I will be glad to leave this Democrat Never-Never Land!
Even traditional Democratic precincts here in Cuyahoga County saw a huge increase in votes for Republican candidates, and thankfully were actually Republican challengers in more races this time (but there will still many Democrat incumbents and Democrat candidates running unopposed! 1 is still too many!)! Even the 3rd party folks made a difference this time! The only 3rd party candidates running in local and state contests were mostly Leftists, Socialists and Green Party Members, who traditionally take votes from the Democrats.
Otherwise, I think most Libertarians and Constitutional Party fans voted Republican!
Yes, it will be nice to leave this land of lunacy behind! Of course, how well Stark County Job and family Services will treat me, remains to be seen! Anything would be better than the way the Dumbocrats at the Southgate J&FS Service Center treated a disabled, aging, white boy with a long and honest work history!
Transportation will be an issue, but the area is on the eastern edge of the city of canton, with some sidewalks and lots of parks. I will see about a bus pass and then getting my license reinstated.
Who knows, if I get a lump sum retro-active from SS, then I might be able to get an adult trike or even a car to get about! Either way, I will not have to rely on the GCRTA and their irregular and indifferent service, or walk in da ‘hood anymore!
So we will see what they say when I have nothing to present! (I have emailed our corporate HR manager in Chicago for payroll records, and we will see how long it takes the Cook County Vital Records office to send a copy of my Birth Certificate!)
I will hate to leave Cuyahoga County, but seeing as the idiots here keep voting Democrats in, including the folks under federal investigation for fraud and corruption, when the rest of the Country just gave the Dems their pink slips, I will be glad to leave this Democrat Never-Never Land!
Even traditional Democratic precincts here in Cuyahoga County saw a huge increase in votes for Republican candidates, and thankfully were actually Republican challengers in more races this time (but there will still many Democrat incumbents and Democrat candidates running unopposed! 1 is still too many!)! Even the 3rd party folks made a difference this time! The only 3rd party candidates running in local and state contests were mostly Leftists, Socialists and Green Party Members, who traditionally take votes from the Democrats.
Otherwise, I think most Libertarians and Constitutional Party fans voted Republican!
Yes, it will be nice to leave this land of lunacy behind! Of course, how well Stark County Job and family Services will treat me, remains to be seen! Anything would be better than the way the Dumbocrats at the Southgate J&FS Service Center treated a disabled, aging, white boy with a long and honest work history!
Transportation will be an issue, but the area is on the eastern edge of the city of canton, with some sidewalks and lots of parks. I will see about a bus pass and then getting my license reinstated.
Who knows, if I get a lump sum retro-active from SS, then I might be able to get an adult trike or even a car to get about! Either way, I will not have to rely on the GCRTA and their irregular and indifferent service, or walk in da ‘hood anymore!
Anyway, change is in the air, and it smells SWEET!
I am thankful to my God, my family, and all of my friends who have reached out, even if it was only in spirit! Knowing that others cared, and helped, even in small ways, helped keep my spirits up and my attitude positive!
I ain’t out of the woods yet (but then I always loved the outdoors, LOL!), so I will not hold my breath. I will however continue to brag about how wonderful my friends truly are!
I am thankful to my God, my family, and all of my friends who have reached out, even if it was only in spirit! Knowing that others cared, and helped, even in small ways, helped keep my spirits up and my attitude positive!
I ain’t out of the woods yet (but then I always loved the outdoors, LOL!), so I will not hold my breath. I will however continue to brag about how wonderful my friends truly are!
I do hope that the distance from my doctor, and my fave
Internet Hot Spot, the 24 hour Get-Go, won’t be a problem with the distance I
will away from them!
Sheryl does have wi/fi and cable TV, so I think I can survive OK. Hopefully, transportation won’t be an issue with the doctor, as he usually sees me every 2 months. And then there is my neurologist, Dr. Furlan; my ophthalmologist, Dr. D’Agostino; and my dentist, Dr. Guren.
Well, one step at a time! I need to make this move, and I really couldn’t think of a better roommate than Sheryl (besides Denny or Matt that is!), and I know her offer is out of more than self pity and need. She was kind enough to let me come stay for a week back in March when I got released from the hospital, and she had no agenda other than to offer me a place to stay!
Now I need to get all of my ducks in a row, and find a way to get a hold of Dennis (he has been staying at his Ex Wife’s apartment while she is in CA, but now she is sick in the hospital in CA, and no one knows when she will be returning!) and make arrangements to have his truck taken care of, and to let him know that I will be living in Canton.
He and I had both planned on making an arrangement together, but that is impractical at present. I hope he understands. I’m pretty sure he will. He knows I would understand completely if he had a similar offer made to him by a good friend!
Sheryl does have wi/fi and cable TV, so I think I can survive OK. Hopefully, transportation won’t be an issue with the doctor, as he usually sees me every 2 months. And then there is my neurologist, Dr. Furlan; my ophthalmologist, Dr. D’Agostino; and my dentist, Dr. Guren.
Well, one step at a time! I need to make this move, and I really couldn’t think of a better roommate than Sheryl (besides Denny or Matt that is!), and I know her offer is out of more than self pity and need. She was kind enough to let me come stay for a week back in March when I got released from the hospital, and she had no agenda other than to offer me a place to stay!
Now I need to get all of my ducks in a row, and find a way to get a hold of Dennis (he has been staying at his Ex Wife’s apartment while she is in CA, but now she is sick in the hospital in CA, and no one knows when she will be returning!) and make arrangements to have his truck taken care of, and to let him know that I will be living in Canton.
He and I had both planned on making an arrangement together, but that is impractical at present. I hope he understands. I’m pretty sure he will. He knows I would understand completely if he had a similar offer made to him by a good friend!
So much to do, so little time, and so much up in the air! As
I said earlier though, one thing at a time. I guess I am getting tired. It is
now 0600 on the 18th, and it’s 14˚ outside, and I just don’t want to
make that walk back to the truck to try and sleep sitting up in that frozen
cab! I was fine yesterday and the day before, but certain friends coming by
while I am sound asleep and comfy warm and expect me to sit there and talk to
them for long periods with the window down, are just too much and make it tough
to get warm and comfy again to sleep!
I appreciate their checking on me, but in reality, they just want someone to talk to! And they do so from a warm car that is running while am freezing trying to polite and listen! This happens in the snow, rain, cold, and high winds!
These folks won’t be able to follow me to Canton, I hope. But I will not leave them out altogether. We all need companionship and human interaction. So I guess I will have to make arrangements to return to the Get-Go from time-to-time and hold court!
I appreciate their checking on me, but in reality, they just want someone to talk to! And they do so from a warm car that is running while am freezing trying to polite and listen! This happens in the snow, rain, cold, and high winds!
These folks won’t be able to follow me to Canton, I hope. But I will not leave them out altogether. We all need companionship and human interaction. So I guess I will have to make arrangements to return to the Get-Go from time-to-time and hold court!
That seems to be my lot at the Library, too! Much to the
disdain of the librarians, as I have a steady stream of visitors who come looking
for me there, and then pull up chairs next me in the “Quiet Area”, and then
talk my ear off for hours on end while I am either trying to read a book, watch
a movie on my computer, or write (I have 5 books in the works, one is complete,
2 need editing, and 2 are still in process)! The Librarians have to keep coming
over and reminding these folks that we are in the quiet area, EVERY TIME THEY
SIT WITH ME!
Oh well. I am sure that I will grow a new posse of followers
and groupies when I find a local hangout in Canton! LOL! I would like to
arrange a regular social gathering with many of my Bedford gang of friends, and
some others, so maybe I’ll arrange a dinner or BBQ at Sheryl’s every few months
or so. Or a trip to the park, or a bar, or something they can all share in!
I am looking forward to Thanksgiving and Christmas now, where before I was dreading the embarrassing position that I may put some folks in, thinking that they need to include me in family activities. Sheryl surprised me last Christmas Day when she called me in the morning to see if I had any plans, and since I was home alone with my cat for the holiday, she drove all the way up to my apartment in Bedford to pick me up, and took me to Christmas dinner with her Dad’s family in Cuyahoga Falls! AZ wonderful time, with wonderful people who treated me like family! Actually, more so than my own family. I wish I could have had my mother, sister and brother there to share in the joy and happiness of a family gathering, but then would I have enjoyed myself as much?
As my brother Jonathan wrote in a caustic email 2 weeks before Christmas back in 2008, he insists that we are a dysfunctional family in denial. He is probably right, but his solution to fix that, was to uninvited my sister and I from Christmas with his wife, daughter and our parents. So for 3 Christmases, I had dinner with my parents on the day that my brother’s family wasn’t there
I am looking forward to Thanksgiving and Christmas now, where before I was dreading the embarrassing position that I may put some folks in, thinking that they need to include me in family activities. Sheryl surprised me last Christmas Day when she called me in the morning to see if I had any plans, and since I was home alone with my cat for the holiday, she drove all the way up to my apartment in Bedford to pick me up, and took me to Christmas dinner with her Dad’s family in Cuyahoga Falls! AZ wonderful time, with wonderful people who treated me like family! Actually, more so than my own family. I wish I could have had my mother, sister and brother there to share in the joy and happiness of a family gathering, but then would I have enjoyed myself as much?
As my brother Jonathan wrote in a caustic email 2 weeks before Christmas back in 2008, he insists that we are a dysfunctional family in denial. He is probably right, but his solution to fix that, was to uninvited my sister and I from Christmas with his wife, daughter and our parents. So for 3 Christmases, I had dinner with my parents on the day that my brother’s family wasn’t there
.
Maybe this is the change I need. My exGF, Charlotte, wants
very much to help me in my plight, but she is still abusing alcohol to solve her
problems, and is mad that I blew her off last Christmas. You see, she knew I
was home alone with no heat (I was denied HEAP when I applied after my
electricity was cut off in my apartment), and though she refuses to celebrate
Birthdays, Thanksgiving, Christmas, or most any other holiday, she offered to
have me over to stay with her for Christmas, and we could order Chinese
Take-Out and just stay warm in her apartment for a few days (she was even
considering allowing me to bring my cat Laci, too, even though her cat Jesse
would have a fit!). I was all for it, until she fell off the wagon the week
before Christmas and started calling me and saying very unpleasant things about
my mother, and then leaving rude messages on my voice mail saying that she (my
mother) was faking her Alzheimer’s to get special attention, and is an evil
ugly bitch and that I should accept that and never visit her (my mother) again,
when I stopped answering the phone!
My God, I haven’t thought about that much at all since last Christmas! I mentioned that to her when I visited some months back, but Charlotte still insist that anything she says when drunk is still the truth and refuses to retract, apologize, or even promise to stop saying any of those things! So I guess this move will be good in other ways too! If I maintain distance from her, then I won’t cave to her pleas when she calls to have me come over and spend time with her.
My God, I haven’t thought about that much at all since last Christmas! I mentioned that to her when I visited some months back, but Charlotte still insist that anything she says when drunk is still the truth and refuses to retract, apologize, or even promise to stop saying any of those things! So I guess this move will be good in other ways too! If I maintain distance from her, then I won’t cave to her pleas when she calls to have me come over and spend time with her.
Even perfect strangers tell me I am crazy to keep a person
like her in my life, under any circumstances! And I know they are right! I
still love her, and want to help her overcome her demons, but at what cost? She
digs into me and says unpleasant things about all of my family members and
friends, and then gets mad at me saying that I should believe her about all of
the evil things she insists are the truth about them, rather than believing what
my friends tell me! Well, surprise, surprise, she still insists that every male
in my life is a drug addicted criminal (except my late friend, Nick, she liked
him), and all of the females are crack-whores who are using me for my money!
(What $$$? I have been in debt since my cancer scare 5 years ago!)
Maybe I can be a better friend to Charlotte from a safe
distance. She wants me to accompany her to her doctor visits and for her
pending medical procedures (she has eye surgery pending, along with several
other procedures), to ease her anxiety, but her anxiety may calm when I am
around, but mine grows when I am around her when she turns toxic and starts
yelling at me and putting my friends and family down!
Yes, yes. I need another long break from her.
On that note, I will end this here, and say
thank you again, to all of you for your support and concern, and for even being
patient with me while I rant on these pages. You guys are the greatest!
As I said, God has blessed me by surrounding me with wonderful people!
Thank you!
Thank you!
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